It's Gettin' To Be That Time...

I apologize for any typos or spelling errors you might find in this. Drake's pop-up blocker will not allow the spell-checker even after I told it to and rather than argue with it, I am going to say fuck it and let the errors remain. It's not like it really matters anyway, its a blog and blogs are lame.

While most of you have started wasting away in class, I won't brag too much that I have yet to begin. Don't hate me or call me and leave nasty voicemails about how lucky I am and whatever, but because I am student teaching, I don't start until Wednesday - and that's just orientation. Thursday and Friday I will be at Belmont getting stuff ready with Mrs. Rangel (one of the most awesome teachers I have been lucky enough to wrk with) and then Monday LPS starts. I an psyched, I am ready to be done with UNL and get started with the rest of my life. I know it is going to be busy and I am going to be working on top of student teaching, but I think I will be okay - and I know Pat will give me time off at the testing center if I need it. I decided to work there Monday-Thursday because at least then I can still do homework most of the time. I will then be at Office Depot Friday-Sunday. That's going to suck, but I need the money. I am also sad because I will not be a season-ticket holder in my last year at UNL. I know I will get to a couple games at least, but it's just not quite the same. Speaking of football, Roxy's wedding was postponed, so Drake will not have to potentially miss the Oklahoma game. That's a plus because I really want him in Chicago with me. He refuses to go shopping on The Mile with me. His exact words were, "I'm not going with you to The Mile because I'd see everything you were buying in the store, then I'd see it again at the hotel, and then again when we got home." I understand, but hello! LOUIS VUITTON!!!! And Aldo's, oh how I love Aldo's. And H&M is hott too. I wish she lived in LA though, because then I could go to Kitsons. I love Kitsons. I love shopping. Speaking of shopping....I started cleaning out my closet to make room for all the new fun teacher clothes that Grandma and I bought. I showed Drake and I don't think he quite understood the magnitude of my "spoild-ness" until he saw the bags and bags of clothes. To be fair though, I bought a lot of them myself, but Grandma also bought quite a bit as well. I can't help it though, I honestly do need the clothes - it's not going to be like my practicums where we only went on Mondays and Wednesdays, I will be at Belmont every single day. Plus, everything we bought was strictly school only, everything was school-appropriate and there's no spaghetti straps or low v-cut shirts. I have a lot of new fun skirts and I am realy excited for school to get going.

I don't really listen to theradio much anymore, mostly because I have a lot of cds I am content with, so forgive me for this song being a little behind the times, but I heard it the other day and fell in love with it.

Anna Nalick - Breathe
2 Am and she calls me cause I'm still awake
Can you help me unravel my latest mistake
I don't love him and winter just wasn't my season.
Yea we walk through the doors so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize
Hypocrites you're all here for the very same reason.

Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable and life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button girl
So just cradle your head in your hands.
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breathe just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base of Fort Bliss
Just today he sat down to the flask in his fist
Ain't been sober since maybe October of last year
Here in town you can tell he's been down for while
But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles
Wanna hold him but maybe I'll just sing about it

Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button boys so cradle your head in your hands
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breath just breathe

There's a light at the end of this tunnel you shout cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made
You'll just make them again if you'll only try turnin' around

2Am and I'm still awake writing this song
If i get it all down on paper it's no lonmger inside of me threaten' the life it belongs to.
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary screamin' out aloud
And I know that you'll use them however you want to.

But you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand...yeah breath
Just breathe, oho breathe,

I know I highlighted a lot but especially the chorus I just thought was so amazing. This song is just, wow, I'm not exactly sure how to describe it. I loved the part especially about the hourglass, it just seemed to hit right on. And yeah, I know it's older now by a couple months or whatever, but since when have I ever liked something everyone else likes right away, especially when it comes to songs? I have to warm up to them, and it takes me a while, because music is so important to me and I have to feel like the song really matters or has relevence.

Britt and I watched Laguna Beach as usual, what I wouldn't give to be on that show! I'd have issues for Kristin for sure, but hey, she's a bitch and you know how bitches have to be dealth with - a quick punch in the face, that's how. It's not quite as god as last season, I think Britt and I both liked that class a lot more, but it's cool that LC is going to be on more. I wish the new girl Casey would close her mouth though, literally. Her teeth are so huge I don't think it is actually possible for her to close it, but she should at least try. It would help out her appearance a lot I think. There's a lot more drama and a love triangle again, but this one is dumb because bth of the girls are annoying and the guy is a whore anyway. At least with the triangle between LC-Kristin-Stepehen, we wanted LC to win. I honestly do not care who wins in the Alex-Jason-Jessica fight. It's just dumb and they should all break up and go on their merry ways APART.

Tomorrow is my last day of freedom so I have some stuff to finish up. I am taking all my clothes to Goodwill. It's hard for me to part with clothes, even if I haven't worn them in a while, but at least if I do this, someone else will get some use out of them. It's just hard to decided what to keep and what to get rid of because there's always the "I might wear this again if..." but I have to be strong. I also need to get my books and all that shit, but I don't think I will have more than two. We have seminar once a week because we're still going to have papers and lesson plans, but it won't be nearly as time-consuming as what I had in previous blocks. I really am looking forward to this, some people were born to be educators and I know I am one of those people. You honestly can not last in the program if you're not good at it, unlike with some other majors. Practicum supervisors and cooperating teachers will let you know right away if you're ready to move on to the next block or not, that's what all our constant evaluations are for. But I am confident, plus Shona will be across the hal with Mrs. Schroeder so I know we will be able to help each other out if we need to.

Whew, that's enough for now, later kids.